I’ve Always Wanted You. Ever Since I Could Remember, I’ve Loved You. I Cannot Wait Until You Are Here.

Love, Mama

Today I realized that this is the right thing to do….that my life begins with you and until you are here in this family, I will continue to suffocate. I’ve been questioning if bringing you into this world, into our nontraditional family would ever hurt you in some kind of way. I’ve wondered if you would hate me for putting you into this situation that will no doubt be trying at times. It will be so trying that it may make you feel ashamed of the people who love you most in this world. I can tell you right now before you are even conceived that I Am So Sorry if you ever feel that you are not normal, like an outsider or freak… if you are ever teased and feel alone. Little Baby I am so sorry that I can’t protect you from the ignorance of this world. I want you to know that I thought of you. I thought of your feelings and I thought of your heart. And while I was thinking of you, I realized that you will be...no, you are so loved and wanted. That you will have a foundation that will shape you into a person that is kind, loyal, tolerant, considerate, accepting, strong and loving because that is who your parents are. You are so very lucky already. There are plans to read you bedtime stories every night and tuck you in, to tell you how much we love you and hug you every day, to spend time listening to whatever you want to talk about, and always being there for you no matter how small the issue. I can’t put into words how much you are loved but I promise to make sure you feel how much you are loved every day of my existence.

Love Always, Mama

Artwork: You are never my burden by Boswell Williams